looking at the way many people (regarding young or not that young) lives today, i realised i am i fact very much left behind. for example, people have been writing their own blogs, this is certainly something that is new to me. to start off this blog, i am ok if there is gona be anyone here to read it. for me, memory will eventually fade away, but words can keep the feelings during that time. so i guess im gona use this as a tool to let myself rmb what i've gone thru and am going to go thru in times to come.
have been thru lots this couple of months, good and bad. i thank God for that. i admit at times it is really difficult to understand, but i told myself, i just want to trust in Jesus, that He is in control. when things happened, obviously not things that i wanted, God always reminds me about Rom 8:28 - and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him. who have been called accoording to His purpose. yes, i've never wanted to doubt bout that. God doesn't like it, when He knows we have allowed doubt to come into us.. not even one percent.
i am learning how to trust God more every single day, trust in His time, His provision, His guidance, His ways.. it is not as easy as i think. but this is what i need to go thru. u know how is the process of gold? it needs to go thru a process of refinement. God is the refiner's fire, i believe thru all that i am going thru, and will go thru, its is because He wants to refine me. and if you are willing, God will do the same in your life as well.
i am praying for myself to be stronger every single day, simultaneously wanting to hear and receive more from the Lord. Father, let it be something new to me, everytime when You speak. because Your wisdom is divine!
